Hi Everyone, First let me say, I usually run spell check, but I am having computer problems so for ALL the misspellings....please fogive me!!!!!
I have been off the boards for a while. Things here just crazy busy and I have just been exhausted. Still in therapy with H....and that is good, but still lonely. Med changes happening for my H & S, but so far....nothing overly negative to report overall. Some days better than others of course, but overall okay. My twins are busy with summer, and camp. My boy twin has been pulled off meds and for the moment is doing better. Although of late, he has started tantrums again. We were completely clear for about a month, and now it is starting again. We are looking into starting ADHD meds vs. the BP for him.
I am at maximum stress with my job. I really want out but have not found something else yet. I accidentially did something VERY minor, but one of the MD's who works at one of the practices my boss owns has gone crazy over it. In a nutshell, I was planning a clinic event, and commented to one of the assistants who would be coming to the event with the MD to schedule follow-ups that some of them may also be scheduled with the new MD joining the practice, as they also may want to fill up his time. I was just projecting forward trying to prepare her for the possibliity - I was then going to talk to my boss about it, but never got the chance. She then relayed to the MD she works with that I said ALL the patients will be scheduled with the other MD for follow-ups, not him, and that I told her it was my boss who said so. Which was not true. Well, this MD goes WILD and suddenly refuses on the day of the event to go. My boss calls me in and is furious at me for saying anything like that. I explained what he was told, was NOT what I said. I apologized all over the place for having verbalized my idea prematurely, and went to the MD and humbly appologized over and over and took 100% responsibility. But he REFUSED to believe that I was at fault, or that what he had been told by his receptionist was not true. And he is CONVINCED that my boss is trying to use me as a scape goat and is plotting against him behind his back. IT IS UNBELIEVABLE! NO SUCH THING IS TRUE, but this MD is CONVINCED of it no matter what I say. So, he goes to the first day of the clinic, I send him an apology email saying I was so sorry for the misunderstanding and what I ignorantly had said, and he responds by saying on the second day of the clinic he refused to go. We scrambled to cover the event, which we did, but my boss is now LIVID with me for what I have done. He has a right to be. I made a mistake and this rediculous MD had turned it into some sinister plot against him. And my boss not only has this disaster on his hands and is being blamed for something he didn't do because this MD is CRAZY! I don't know how I can fix it either. I have apologized, I have owned it, I have told the truth, and because this guy REFUSING to believe me and being PARANOID that he is being plotted against, it has turned into WWIII. My boss thinks the MD may quit which will leave this practice without an MD at his level. And the thing is, what was said was SO damm innocent. All this guy needed to do was check out the information he was told before getting mad, and my boss would have told him what I had suggested was in no way going to happen, he didn't know anything about it (which he really didn't other than I had mentioned the thought to him in passing but we hadn't had time to discuss it. IF we had, he would of told me NO to begin with....only I didn't know that), and he would of told this MD he didn't know why I would have said that. He would have called me in, gotten mad at me, said "why'd you say that?", I'd tell him what I was thinking, realized I should have taken the time to clear the idea fully with him before opening my mouth. I would have apologized and that would have been it. Only, this guy thinks I am lying to cover for my boss - I am not.....he is convinced there is a conspiriousy - there is not.....and I may now get fired over all this. I am currently on probation because of it. I feel just TERRIBLE about all this....just TERRIBLE. I know I didn't say anything horrible, a simple NO that is not what we are going to do would have sufficed. I don't know why the receptionist relayed such a scewed version of what I told her, but now it is like this avalanche falling over this. It is TOTALLY crazy!!!! I am so sad, mad and feeling guilty. This MD is NUTS to have turned it into such a thing. I know doctors have egos, but this is TOTALLY CRAZY!
So guys....that is how I am doing!!! How are all of you? LFW
Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 7/11/2009 1:48:06 PM (GMT-6)