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   Posted 9/13/2009 2:37 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
Hope you are all coping.  I thought I would post an update.  A lot has happened in my life in the past couple of months........
My bf and I went on our first week holiday together, back in June...took our lab with us, he had a great time!  So did we....we really had a great time together, and we both really noticed how relaxed we were.  We got back to our duplex (split house, shared with strange neighbours).  It was our first place together, we'd been there 3 years.  We realized along with working too hard ( & working in a not nice environment) our living situation wasn't the greatest either.  We wanted desperately to be on our own, to have a yard for the dog...but we aren't ready to buy.  So my bf got on the computer & found a house for rent (good price) all new floors, paint, new deck, huge yard!!!  And, it's in a peacful little village that is still in the city we live in.  I feel like we're in this quiet little has amazing little restuarants, shops...and the street is right across from our version of Central Park!!!  Our street is also beautiful,'s just heaven.  So that was awesome change number one....
Number two, I kicked up my job search when we got home from holidays.  Most of you know I was very happy working with the dr's in the clinic I was in, but it was controlled by terrible management that paid us next to nothing.  My own dr said it was abuse, she was disgusted and had urged me long ago to get out.  So, one night at the old place I applied to one of the hospitals here in the was only one position available, but full time, and....I got it!!!!  I am going to be the secrtary for three child psychiatrists!!!!  I start tomorrow, and I am so excited.  I have to say I am very proud of myself.  I actually got myself out of a very stressful situation, and I can't describe how relieved I feel knowing I'm not going back to the clinic tomorrow!!! 
My meds have been pretty good, no changes in a few months.  I touched base with pdoc while I was in the middle of moving and going through the  month-long interview process for the was a stressful time, and he just wanted to wait for that to be over before changing anything.  I have experienced a bit of depression here and there and I am still cycling too.  But I feel overall pretty good.  It's not perfect, but until I get into this new position, I will cope.  The main difference with all these meds is that I haven't hit a huge bout of depression yet.   I am really trying to chart my moods, but I can't keep up on it, and it's frustrating me!!! 
Anyway, that's it.  I send hugs to you all !!
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 4mg/day, Mirapex .75 mg/day & Lamictal 350 mg/day

loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 9/13/2009 8:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Mogs, You are doing SO well....I am SOOOOO proud of you! Congrats on ALL your victories!!!!! Hugs, LFW

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   Posted 9/13/2009 8:56 PM (GMT -7)   
This all sounds great Mogli,

I'm so glad for you. Moving is really stressful, but if you're prepared it can be such a great thing. I'm so glad. Thanks for letting us know how you're doing. You're on my mind.

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   Posted 9/14/2009 3:01 PM (GMT -7)   
Mogli I am so glad to hear that you are doing so well! Good for you for taking the jump to finding a better place of employment. For how many hours we must work...we might as well enjoy where we work. I hope learning all of your new duties does not stress you out to sound like mentally you are in a good place and can handle it. Being able to go through a move and a job search without any major meltdowns is pretty great I think!
Congrats on the new job, you should feel so proud of yourself!
"Just because you're in the driver's seat, doesn't mean
you have to run people over." ~ Fred Pausch

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   Posted 9/18/2009 3:43 AM (GMT -7)   
Great to hear from you!  Such Great News too!  All around Happy, Happy, Happy.
How's the new job going?

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   Posted 10/11/2009 6:03 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Guys,
Sorry it's been so long.  This new job has sunk me into a huge episode of depression.  First one since I got stable on the new meds a few months ago.  I do feel discouraged, it's hard not to. shakehead
Here is the problem:  There is literally nothing to do at my new job!  I work 8 to 4 and there are so few things to do all week.  There have been full days (each week) where I have sat in my office with nothing to do but want to cry because the day is dragging so much.  It's agony.  But soon, things are going to pick up, a little bit anyway.  So I may have something to do....
The bordem feeds the depression like nothing I've experienced, ever.  I called my pdoc and got in right away (they work within the same hospital) and we upped my Mirapex, to just over 1mg/day.  So far I haven't been much better.  I've been slowly increasing over the past week.  On Friday, it was the first day that I worked at things at my job all day.  I dragged the duties out, but at least the day went.  Now it's the long weekend for Thanksgiving (Canada!) and I am sick now too.  Sore throat, major conjestion in my chest, achy....ugh....I think all the stress got the better of me for sure.
It's hard because I am getting paid so much more and being in the hospital is something that I would never ever give up, so I hope things change for the better soon.  One positive thing.  Since I have nothing to do at work, I have been journalling almost everyday and mood charting every day.  I wish I could stay on HW during the work day, but I am watching the internet use.  I am still in my probation for another 2 months.  Even after that, I won't be using the internet in my office.
Anyway, I hope you are all well.  I am going to read some posts now.  Thank you all for supporting me.  I am here for all of you and proud of all of you for coping through each day.
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 4mg/day, Mirapex .75 mg/day & Lamictal 350 mg/day

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   Posted 10/13/2009 11:20 AM (GMT -7)   
Have you thought about bringing in books to read (job related if you can) to spend the time that you wait for something to do? WHat do other people do to fill up their time?
Even though I do not understand where I am going on the path that God has laid out for me, I must submit to His plan and trust that He will take me where I need to be. 
Current medications:
Bipolar treatment-Lamictal, 200mg, Mood stabelizer, daily(main side effect: brain fog) Bipolar treatment-Cymbalta, 40mg, Antidepressant, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting, insominia) Anemia, Fatigue treatment- Iron supplement, 65mg, daily(main side effect: constipation) Insominia treatment- Ambien, 10mg, daily(main side effect: amnesia eppisodes between taking pill and falling asleep) Mania treatment- Alprazolam, .25mg, Very rarely(main side effect: fatigue, slowing of thoughts, depression of CNS, can't take ambien or vicodin when on it) RA treatment- Plaquenil, 400mg, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting) RA treatment- Methotrexate, 25mg, 1X weekly(main side effects: hair loss, stomach upset, mouth sores, sore muscles, fatigue, brain fog, compromised immune system, decreased Folic Acid absorption) GI upset treatment- Leucovorin Calcium, 10mg 1x weekly(main side effects: ?) Folic Acid defintioncy- Folic Acid, 1mg, daily(main side effects: ?) Multi-mineral Supplement (main side effects: constipation, GI upset) Constipation treatment- Docusate Sodium, 200mg, daily(main side effects:?) pain control- Motrin, 800mg, PRN Q6hours daily(main side effects: GI upset, decreased clotting) Pain Control- Vicodin, 5-500mg, PRN Q12hours 3-4 times weekly (main side effects: brain fog, fatigue)

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