Hope you are all coping. I thought I would post an update. A lot has happened in my life in the past couple of months........
My bf and I went on our first week holiday together, back in June...took our lab with us, he had a great time! So did we....we really had a great time together, and we both really noticed how relaxed we were. We got back to our duplex (split house, shared with strange neighbours). It was our first place together, we'd been there 3 years. We realized along with working too hard ( & working in a not nice environment) our living situation wasn't the greatest either. We wanted desperately to be on our own, to have a yard for the dog...but we aren't ready to buy. So my bf got on the computer & found a house for rent (good price) all new floors, paint, new deck, huge yard!!! And, it's in a peacful little village that is still in the city we live in. I feel like we're in this quiet little town...it has amazing little restuarants, shops...and the street is right across from our version of Central Park!!! Our street is also beautiful, trees....it's just heaven. So that was awesome change number one....
Number two, I kicked up my job search when we got home from holidays. Most of you know I was very happy working with the dr's in the clinic I was in, but it was controlled by terrible management that paid us next to nothing. My own dr said it was abuse, she was disgusted and had urged me long ago to get out. So, one night at the old place I applied to one of the hospitals here in the city...it was only one position available, but full time, and....I got it!!!! I am going to be the secrtary for three child psychiatrists!!!! I start tomorrow, and I am so excited. I have to say I am very proud of myself. I actually got myself out of a very stressful situation, and I can't describe how relieved I feel knowing I'm not going back to the clinic tomorrow!!!
My meds have been pretty good, no changes in a few months. I touched base with pdoc while I was in the middle of moving and going through the month-long interview process for the hospital...it was a stressful time, and he just wanted to wait for that to be over before changing anything. I have experienced a bit of depression here and there and I am still cycling too. But I feel overall pretty good. It's not perfect, but until I get into this new position, I will cope. The main difference with all these meds is that I haven't hit a huge bout of depression yet. I am really trying to chart my moods, but I can't keep up on it, and it's frustrating me!!!
Anyway, that's it. I send hugs to you all !!
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Methoprazine 4mg/day, Mirapex .75 mg/day & Lamictal 350 mg/day