I'm sure you have good intentions, but your post comes across very harsh and judgemental.
My intention of sharing my struggle with this forum was to get some insight from those who suffer from BP on the irritability issues, where it comes from, do they really mean what they say, what works, what doesn't work, etc...it's always been a supportive and comforting place to come.
Of course you are free to read the posts on my thread, but I do not appreciate you stating that you "see the same things over and over again" when I am communicating back and forth with many friends on this forum, and receiving valuable and supportive insight. I would never dream of reading your private posts and saying something like that.
I doubt anyone comes here to be judged, and the truth is - because I have self-esteem - that is why I stand up to my husband and recognize what he is doing is wrong. Because I have stayed does not mean I have no self esteem. I have a wonderful counselor who helps me with this. I am not defending his verbal abuse, and anything I wrote which may have portrayed that comes from the place in my heart that has loved many things about this man for 13 years. I want to be fair and not portray him as a horrible person. And...maybe I need to clarify that he is this way a handful of times all year. No, that does not make it right. It is absolutely wrong. It's kind of bizarre how he switches from a gentle, loving person to a verbally abusive one. That's what makes this such a hard situation, and hard to know what the right thing to do is. When he has his verbal rants, it clearly makes me upset. Most of the time, after everything is said, he is remorseful (not always). I don't know yet what I will do if it continues much longer. The comments I made on the post last night were simply venting. Of course I know I don't 'deserve the treatment', that was sarcasm.
I love to hear suggestions, but I am not here to be criticized for what you believe I am not doing, or the content of my threads criticized. You are not in my position but yet you are telling me that "I do not demand respect". How do you know that? So you are saying that to 'demand respect', the only option is to leave my bipolar husband and break apart our family?
Serafina, there are NO CAPS allowed, but someone can speak in this tone of voice to someone, and bold and underline their remarks, and tell the poster to 're-read their replies' and that they 'see the same things over and over again on their thread'?? I surely hope not, this is supposed to be a safe place to come.