I hope that the lifted mood stuck as the evening went on. So smart of you to break out of the routine and do something for yourself! You are so important to so many people. I have to say that I cried when I saw the replies to your post. This is what this post is here for- to hold each other together all that we can. You always seem to respond to whatever I write, and say just what needs to be said.
I know what it is like to have a little girl arround that you have to think of when the pit looms dark in front of you. My girls are no longer fazed when they see mom randomly cry, or spend the evening in my room. I get great hugs, but it doesn't scare them anymore like it used to. (Not sure if that is good or bad, not that I think about it)
It seems like a lot of us are not doing the greatest just now. I feel the pull, like I have to struggle harder to be OK now. It would be so much easier to just give up and fall in. Don't do it! It is worth the struggle to resist! Keep giving us updates, and I hope you know that I am pulling for you.
Even though I do not understand where I am going on the path that God has laid out for me, I must submit to His plan and trust that He will take me where I need to be.
Bipolar treatment-Lamictal, 200mg, Mood stabelizer, daily(main side effect: brain fog) Bipolar treatment-Cymbalta, 40mg, Antidepressant, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting, insominia) Anemia, Fatigue treatment- Iron supplement, 65mg, daily(main side effect: constipation) Insominia treatment- Ambien, 10mg, daily(main side effect: amnesia eppisodes between taking pill and falling asleep) Mania treatment- Alprazolam, .25mg, Very rarely(main side effect: fatigue, slowing of thoughts, depression of CNS, can't take ambien or vicodin when on it) RA treatment- Plaquenil, 400mg, daily(main side effect: GI upset, decreased clotting) RA treatment- Methotrexate, 25mg, 1X weekly(main side effects: hair loss, stomach upset, mouth sores, sore muscles, fatigue, brain fog, compromised immune system, decreased Folic Acid absorption) GI upset treatment- Leucovorin Calcium, 10mg 1x weekly(main side effects: ?) Folic Acid defintioncy- Folic Acid, 1mg, daily(main side effects: ?) Multi-mineral Supplement (main side effects: constipation, GI upset) Constipation treatment- Docusate Sodium, 200mg, daily(main side effects:?) pain control- Motrin, 800mg, PRN Q6hours daily(main side effects: GI upset, decreased clotting) Pain Control- Vicodin, 5-500mg, PRN Q12hours 3-4 times weekly (main side effects: brain fog, fatigue)