OMG, this is sooo terrible to say but I'm soooo grateful that I'm not the only one that doesn't remember my kids growing up!!!!!! I've always thought I was such a terrible mother because of that. Today my kids will say " mom do you remember...." Barbs, I'm so sorry you're having the difficulties that you are. My mom, up until recently, has always told me to snap out of it. And I too am over that 40 mark, 42 to be exact. That's something else I can't remember. You know when ya go to the dr and they ask....how old are you. I go completely blank it was just last year that I was saying I was 43! My gosh I don't wanna add more on! I've never tore out my journal entries I just never seem to be able to make myself sit down and write. I dunno if that's because I forget, get busy or what so I have my journal sittin around everywhere and my daughter asked me about a month ago "why do you leave your journal out? anybody could read it." Well to be honest, I'm at the point...those are my feelings, those are the things I can't say if it's read that's fine but be assured most that read won't like what they read. But, maybe their curiosity will get em kicked in the butt and they'll have to join my reality. I dunno. But I'm at the point I really don't care who knows what. And that's kinda scary since I'm not so secure with my life and those in it.
Sno, let me tell ya.....I'm far from genious so I dunno about that one
Hopefully I'll be seeing the doc today. They called last night while I was at the grocery and told my husband to have me call them before 9 this am. My apt is at 9:30 and I'm about 45 min to an hour away from them, talk about some major anxiety going on!!!! They wouldn't tell my husband even if they were calling to confirm my apt. So I've got some major stress goin on right now. So I've definitely gotta find out how to get them to talk to him when I'm not available. Uuugghhh the stress!!!!
Randy, I had a doc in California that I told "I notice I hurt more when I'm out of my antidepressants" He says to me well that should tell ya something....it's all psychosomatic.....I actually got insulted. I told him it didn't matter if it was psychosomatic it still by god hurt!! So you're right no matter the cause it's still a problem. And let me tell ya your story certainly wouldn't bore me. Most nights I search and search for something to read because I'm unable to sleep right now. I go into chat rooms and just sit there so that I"m not alone. But I don't talk in em....I reckon I'm just nosey
Gosh! I'm so grateful that I'm no longer alone!!!!!! Thanx ya'll! Ya'll are making my life a great deal better, at least I don't feel totally alone anymore. Though, I hate that others are suffering as well.
And Barbs, welcome! I too am new and have found it fairly easy to post especially when I don't proof read and just hit the send button
Otherwise I would never send what I sit and bang out. That probably isn't the best way to do it and hopefully that'll change, because right now I worry that I might say something to offend someone and I honestly truly don't mean to do that.
Thanx again ya'll for the support!!!! It's much needed, especially today.....I hate going to new doctors with a purple passion!!!!!!
I don't mean to offend. If I do Plz let me know