I've tried writing this twice now, and both times its come out some long huge giant story, which im trying to steer clear of. i've just always been a writer and could go on forever.
in a nutshell, i've been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years now.
He always thought he was bipolar, mother had it, always saw the signs. He refused to see anyone about it orget help because of a friend and his bad reaction to medications and it ruined his life. His friend finally found something that worked, and he decided he was tired of living with the disease and he needed to get help.
It was a huge step. We would bicker about stupid things like couples do, and he would escalate it into something huge. It upset me more and I would go at it with him. It's how we dealt.
He got on medication about 6 months ago. You could see the difference almost immediately. He's doing a lot better.
But medication doesnt cure it, it only helps it, makes it less severe.
While I'm used to yelling at him during a disagreement, because he could listen, (hes now on adhd medicine as well) and repeating myself, we didnt need that anymore. He can talk and have a conversation now.
i'm having a hard time getting that through my head. And this time it was bad. I pushed him too far, because i was upset and i get stubborn and defensive when im that upset. So he went off the edge and said the most hurtful stuff he's ever said.
First off, how do you handle that? How can you remind yourself that its the disease, and he doesnt mean it.. No matter how many times he tells me, and how terrible he feels he made me feel like that and hes sorry and its got him depressed he hurt me that bad, I still am hurting. Its still going through my head.
How can I see the signs early? before i get upset and have a harder time controlling myself?
How can I train myself to realize hes better now, and i need to just agree, or apologize, or just stop talking to him?
i'm not quite sure how to handle him. I'm not used to this, and I dont want to push him ever again. We're both hurting a lot because of it.
i'm trying to understand this disease better and learn with him, so we can both handle it and face it head on. It caused a lot of problems before he got help, I want to get past those.
I want to know how to make it in a relationship with a bipolar person. We love eachother very much and i dont want this disease to get in the way of that.