I haven't been on in a while but I am having an extreamly difficult day. The last week has been horrible and I'm not sure what to do. I felt that I was starting to feel better, but now I'm feeling worse.
Not because I'm so sad and overwhelmed that I can't take it which is usually what it feels like when I think of it. Its more like a feeling that its the best thing to do, more of a determination. I haven't done anything but I constantly feel like I should. It's very different then I'm used to feeling. I've suffered with sever depression on numerous occasions but it didn't feel like this. Has anyone else ever felt this way? What should I do? I don't have anyone I feel comfortable talking about
it with, I feel like I have burdened my friends too much already. Its Sunday so my doc isn't in and I know that I wouldn't be honest with him anyway, I never am. I only tell him bits and pieces, and I know thats a bad thing but I can't bring myself to tell anyone everything. I tell different people different things but never all of it to one person. I don't know what to do, but I do know that I feel like I should really get going and go through with it. I'm not sure that I would but I know that I have more than enough drugs in the house to do it. Help.
(Sorry I had to edit, Pippen. See Rule #1. -- Serafena)
Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 11/15/2009 12:30:56 PM (GMT-7)