Bipolar? Borderline? Both?

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Date Joined Nov 2009
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   Posted 11/22/2009 10:37 AM (GMT -7)   
I've spent a lot of time over the years since I was 15 seeing psychiatrists. Yet these mental health "professionals" never agree on anything and seem to be new age Witch Doctors. Why am I so harsh? because i've been told I have one thing and then another and dosed up with medication after medication. It's just quite tiring after a while. And I don't think that psychiatrists should really focus so much on medication when they should be thinking about holistic treatment. Sure, they're just doctors but their responsibility should at LEAST extend to providing assistance in finding help. In Singapore where I'm from there isn't much support in terms of support groups for depression or Bipolar etc. or even very much ease in finding a good psychologist.

Anyway, I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15 - when I first went to see a psychiatrist and since then I've been in and out of hospital for suicidal . Over the years I've even had some ECT done for severe depression. I was on one medication to the next and thankfully switched from my first doctor who seemed more interested in PR than diagnosing me properly. I eventually was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder when I was 18. This upset me quite a bit as I did not know what it was and when I did find out I felt there was a big stigma about it. Infuriated and full of disbelief I sought a second opinion from my current doctor who diagnosed me wit Bipolar Type II. But when I went to Australia for further studies, I went to see a new psychiatrist and decided to seek her opinion on what I had. My erratic mood, black and white thinking and unstable relationships led her to believe I had Borderline Personality Disorder - which at this point, 5 years down the road I was open to.

Today, depending on what school of thought you stand on in psychiatry I am either a bipolar type II purely, as Borderline is actually in the bipolar spectrum or BOTH of the two disorders. I really just want to get treated best for whatever it is I have and I'm sick of diagnoses.

Also, why aren't there any (AT ALL) resources for Bipolar and Borderline comorbity? I've searched several online bookstores but find nothing except medical journals...

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   Posted 11/22/2009 3:17 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi lyrehs,

Welcome to Healingwell.  I hope we can help you out some.

I wouldn't get so hung up on titles of mental illness since to me they all kind of sometimes blend together with their symptoms sometimes.  Well, least to me.

What medications have worked for you.  What are you currently taking now? 

Is there a therapist that you can see on a regular basis where you are at?  I see one and that is where I feel I get the greatest amount of help from.

Others will be around to post some replies too.  It gets sort of slow around here over the weekends.

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   Posted 11/22/2009 7:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Lyrehs,

I totally appreciate what you are saying! I think Sukay has it right though -- your best bet is to loosen your need for a strict definition of your diagnosis and focus on the symptoms -- since that's what the docs are treating anyway. Abilify doesn't know your diagnosis -- it only acts upon your brain in a certain way. If that's useful to you, great. If not, you (unfortunately) have to keep trying until you find meds that do work.

In the past year I too have been rediagnosed a couple of times and don't know what to believe anymore. I have been involved in a complicated search for a new psych as mine moved out of the area. Unfortunately, in the middle of this transition, I had a severe episode and was hospitalized. I've seen 6 different psychs this year. Each one diagnosed me slightly differently. Currently, I am going back and forth between two: one who says I don't have bipolar at all but clinical depression "with some personality disorders" (whatever that means) or the other who says I'm bipolar alright but also have ADD. Huh? I've never heard that one before and I'm 37. You think we'd have hit on that by now. The medication is different for each, but trying them doesn't hurt. If it works, great. (By the way, my current meds are not working well and I don't think I have ADD.)

Incidentally, I don't think the psychs are witch doctors because they can't agree. I think it just goes to show how complex and complicated the field is. The brain resists fitting in little boxes. For every one person with textbook Bipolar I, there are 10 with more "interesting" variations. :-) That's us. Interesting.

I'll keep my eyes open for any resources about bipolar and borderline dxs together.

Be well,
Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum
Bipolar II

"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER

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