Yea I heard there is a certain criteria you have to meet to be considered bipolar it's just that I'm so completely down, sad, depressed, that I'm completely exhausted of any other kind of feelings. I'm completely and utterly miserable, and completely irritable all day. And the last day or two I've began to even shut down and withdraw from family members. I want to talk to them but I feel like I'm burdening them with how weak and depressed I am. I also feel like I'm not even myself, feel like I'm just dreaming sometimes and just like a robot doing everyday things that I have to do to just get through the day. Someone told me that you don't have to have the extreme highs to be bipolar, and it's not that I want to be bipolar. I just want answers as to why I'm feeling the way I feel if that makes any sense.
Also, my current therapist I only meet for 30 min a session, was wondering if that a normal amount of time? I feel like I don't really accomplish much on every visit and my first therapist I was going to go see was an hour and a half session but they unfortunately didn't take my insurance so that was going to start getting pretty costly. If anyone who has gone to a therapist that they have seen good results from can shed some light on that situation I'd appreciate it, or even better if someone in the NY area has a therapists name that they would recommend? Willing to try and do just about anything to get out of this state I'm in.