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Date Joined Dec 2009
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   Posted 12/15/2009 2:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Everyone. My name is GmTeegs. I'm new.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar I four years ago, 6 years after being diagnosed with Bipolar II. Indeed, when early (Bipolar II) symptoms came on when I was 19 or 20, they were much more manageable. I had a lot of crying outbursts, bad sleep, coupled with those explosions of euphoria, and daily revelations. They were, however, grounded in earthly matters.

My diagnosis switched up when the rushes became so blinding that I began to think I was a vessel for God, and that I was a player in a worldwide religious syndicate of sorts. The aftermath of my first real mania left me crippled for 6 months, until I could slowly resume work as a janitor. I enrolled in a masters program and cut down on the massive Seroquel and Xanax doses, but returned to the comfort of heavy drug use and OD'd on morphine that fall. I straightened out on a fantastic combo of lamictal (500mg) and lexapro (30mg).

But you know how the story goes. I went off my meds in the spring and wound up getting expelled from school for explosive behavior, and hard work daily on a farm somehow helped me regain my sanity, and I met the woman who is now my wife. We bought a house this past spring, and were married in the summer. I love her very much.

Even on medication now, I'm coming out of a mild mixed episode. I had some aggressive anger during family thanksgiving, saw that terrified look in people's eyes (ever had people look at you like that when you're manic?), and now have my wife worried about my "death talk." It's disconcerting, and she's worn thin.

I'm new here, but I assume a lot of you have dealt with this and have wisdom beyond what I can think of. Thanks for listening.

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Date Joined May 2007
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   Posted 12/15/2009 7:34 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi GmTeegs,

Welcome to HealingWell and to the bipolar board. It's good to have you.

Thanks for telling us a little bit about yourself. That's nice.

It's frustrating that the meds can't make us 100%, isn't it?

Look forward to talking more,
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II

"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER

red lightening
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Date Joined Jan 2009
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   Posted 12/15/2009 11:06 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome GM Teegs!!!

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Date Joined Feb 2010
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   Posted 3/8/2010 6:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome, GM Teegs. I have seen that look in people eyes when I wasn't well it is scary. My faith often carries me through those times.
I have been Bipolar for about 20 years and I am still here. Nice to have you here.

Bipolar/borderline personality disorder (don't quite understand that, the BPD)
On Haldol, clonazepam, benzotropine, valproic acid.
High Blood pressure (recent May 2009)
Other health issues too.

happy bill
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Date Joined Nov 2008
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   Posted 3/9/2010 5:16 AM (GMT -7)   


     Hello and welcome, Bill here, i suffer from bad manias and sexual addiction issues.

    However one thing you said struck a nerve,  you said hard work helped you regain your sanity. I work 80 hours a week and may be upping that to 85 hours a week and you know what, it really does help me to keep it together.  I dont know why but for what ever reason hard work kinda like my bicycle riding, helps get a lot of my mania energy out of my system so i can take a lower dose of my meds. 

    Glad to see you found a good woman to stand by you, having that touchstone in your life helps alot.


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