Im usually not on here, although I drop by to read the posts quite often. Anyways, after having several breakdowns, I was talking to my therapist when she read the notes from my pdoc. He wrote that he had been waiting for me to crack
open and that he believes I have some form of BP. I thought this for a long time, but Im no specialist... but the thing is I have been dx'ed with a lot of things... so how am I supposed to know which is which?
I have been dx'd with chronic depression, anxiety disorder w/social phobia, panic disorder w/depersonalization episodes, eating disorder, ocd, impulsive behavior, self destructive behavior and then fibromyalgia. I think that is everything, Im not sure but anyways I am taking: Focalin XR 5mg/day Wellbutrin 150mg/day Klonopin .5mg/2x day as needed Trazodone 100mg/night and.... Prozac 40mg/day.
And now my pdoc says because he thinks I have BPD that these other meds will not work (as well) until we add a mood stabilizer. I would agree to give that a shot... I have tried so many other meds that never helped me like cymbalta, paxil... list goes on... So, anything that could help I will roll with.
Also, I was reading the post about BP people being alone... I just ended a relationship today. Mostly because I am always in too many different moods and I didnt think it was fair to them. They understood that I had my moods, but I just didnt think I could make things happen because of all of the mental stuff. We had been together 3 months now and I couldnt ask for anyone better.... but, it just isnt fair to the other person when I am in different moods and when I cant tell what I feel....
Any advice? Any help at all? I would appreciate anything you all have to offer... your experiences, etc thanks