Here's my first plight I'd like to seek insight from my new friends here on this board.
It's a daily struggle, and I genuinely give it my best effort for fight off negative thoughts, and the ensuing negative emotions and depression, but it's become extremely difficult because of my lack of interest in just about everything. I'm pretty efficient at my job. Almost to a fault - where it's become extremely unchalleging. And then the boredom sets in, which can bring about a sense of worthlessness. My career has always driven me, but now I have no desire for a promotion, a raise, or even praise. I went from content to complacent.
It's this almost daily neverending circle of concern for me. I need to stay busy, mostly by being mentally engaged and sometimes physically, but I've got so little interest in anything - so how in the world do I keep my mind occupied?
I don't have much excitement for what I used to enjoy. I don't see the payoff in trying new things, that I haven't already discovered. Even what I do enjoy, I tire of quickly.
I usually dread the weekends, because without friends I want to hang out with, and without interests I don't have anymore, I sit around, get bored, and that sense of worthlessness comes about. And yes, there are nights then I drink because 1. I'm bored, and 2. because it slows my racing thoughts and give me a sense of focus.
I appreciate the feedback!
Bipolar II (diag. 2005)
On my 7th psychologist. *I've moved alot*
Thousands of pages read on my disorder
Looking for people like me
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