What's wrong with me.. I know I'm bipolar....but why do I have to keep making the same stupid mistakes over and over again.
I just saw my nurse and doctor recently and my doc asked does you're husband "take care" of you. I said yes....I lied. He loves me...but doesn't have time to "take care" of me. He is so busy and over stressed we just don't get time with each other and that means I have been
straying from the nest over and over again....looking for someone to fill the void...I am using metaphors cause I don't want to provide gory details of what is going on with me...let's just say I am a bad wife and I am having trouble keeping out of trouble....does this mean I'm in a manic phase or does it just mean I am incapable of being a nun and going without.
I am so stressed over this , it is starting to effect the quality of my sleep and I am a spiritual person and my spiritual life is going out the window. I need to hear what everyone else does when these issues come up....and this problem with my hubby has been this way for years and there is never a real solution for it...it just goes on and on and on and it seems I have to be superwoman to deal with it....it drives me nuts....
Anyways, enough said. I sure would like to hear what you all have to say about
this and if any of you have ever conquered this problem.
Hope I am not too vague, that no one knows what I am saying, I just can't bring myself to say it specifically, thanks for listening.
Bipolar II/borderline personality disorder (mild too supposedly)
On Haldol, clonazepam, benzotropine, valproic acid.
High Blood pressure (recent May 2009)
Other health issues too.