I bet people think I am a selfish flake. From their point of view I come and go and don't value the relationship. Really, I am doing the best I can and saving them from my depressions.
I have 1 good friend that I've known for 10+ years. She has seen me through my worst.
I try to open up to my SO. It's really hard for me to talk about it because my thoughts race and I don't know what to say first, or how to explain it to a normal person. Sometimes I send him and email or a link to a thread here. I did that today and when he came home for lunch, he took care of my son, fixed lunch for him, played with him, and then came and sat with me and held my hand. :love:
I have a penpal friend that might as well be my clone. Our lives are so parallel to each other! She completely gets it. We both are dog trainers and both struggle to keep a business going with the moody, people-hating times. She is not BP, but very similar.
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder