I have been married for 3 years to my best friend in the world. We have been having problems on and off throughout our entire relationship, but lately has been at it's worst, and I believe my husband has bipolar disorder.
When we first started dating, he told me that he had "manic depression," but became offended if I called it bipolar disorder, because he does not recognize the two as the same disorder. I think it also has to do with pride, and I have many times pointed out how common bp is, and how it does not make anyone a bad person if they have it, any more than having asthma would make someone a bad person, know what I mean?
Anyway, he will not seek counseling, not even marriage counseling to save our marriage. If I cry, then I am crazy/delusional/picking a fight/too sensitive/unsupportive, etc. If I try to talk to him, I am "attacking" him, or trying to pick a fight. I do not get a hug or an apology when I am upset. I get in trouble, (for lack of a better way to explain), if I show my emotions, or try to talk anything out. I will get a mumbled "I'm sorry too" when I break down, and apologize, just so he will get out of bed, and interact with me. Otherwise, it has been 2 years since he has admitted to having any part in our arguments. In his eyes, it is all me. This is all textbook emotional abuse, I know that. But, I know in my heart that he does not mean to be this way, and furthermore, he is not always like this. I've noticed that he has cycles. So, I am back to the bp, seeing if there is something I can do. Taking any medications, besides pot, and painkillers for back pain, is completely out of the question. He is against medication. He doesn't think he has a problem, we have an infant son, and I am at my wits end with trying to keep things afloat and working in our marriage.
Here is an example from today:
He's been gone working,, gone all day long. (Yes I am 120 percent sure this is what he is doing - not cheating.) As much as I miss him, and get stressed out taking care of my son alone all day, I understand that this is what he needs to do so we can earn money. I help him as much as I can, sometimes I will even go with him, and take care of the baby while helping him work.
Today, he was laying in bed with our son, playing, and since we haven't been able to spend very much time together, I came over to them to have some family time. My husband immediately stopped playing, and started groaning in annoyance a couple of times. My son started to whine, and when I asked my husband why he wasn't playing with us, he said it was because I came in, and now our son is being whiny. So, I quietly left the room, since the groaning and other behavior made it obvious that I was not wanted. That hurt my feelings, because I miss my husband, and I miss spending time together as a family. So, my husband played with our son a little longer, than said he was going to leave to go on a hike in the woods. I asked him if we could spend some time together first becuase I've been missing him, and he started yelling that I wasn't being supportive of him, or appreciative, that I always wanted to start a fight, etc. He would not stop yelling, and I started to cry, which for whatever reason seems to infuriate my husband. Because i started crying, he stomped off into our bedroom, and laid in bed to pout. He does this often, and will lay there until I break down, and tell him that I was wrong and apologize. He has laid in that bed pouting for 2 days straight before, while I took care of my son, walking on eggshells, not sure what to expect. I decided recently that I could not just sweep everything like that under the carpet, and allow my son to see such things going on. So, I went into the bedroom, and (in a normal, calm voice - I do not yell.)told my husband if he was going to do that, I would appreciate it if he just went on his hike, because I could not take the tension right now, and I didn't want my son to be in that situation either. While he was getting ready, I said that I supported his decisions, that I didn't expect him not to go on the hike, I just wanted a few mintues of his time. He didn't really let me get all of that out, he just started yelling again, and this was making my son cry, so I asked my husband to leave. He said he didn't know if he was coming back, took all of our money, our only working cell phone, I have no drivers license, and he took the car.
Does this sound like he might be bipolar/manic depressive? I don't know what to do...I don't want to give up on our marriage, but I can not live like this anymore, espeically when I have my son to think of.