One crazy Saturday night... sigh

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   Posted 5/31/2010 8:58 AM (GMT -7)   

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   Posted 6/1/2010 8:31 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh, yeah...I can't count how many times that scene has been played at our house.  I can go so ballistic, especially when I don't want to be bothered and pretty soon it escalates into a nightmare.  But we always make up, but it takes me awhile to totally get over it.  I know the BP plays a big part in it and I hate it because I feel it controls me.  I am sorry you had such a bad time of it.

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   Posted 6/1/2010 10:31 AM (GMT -7)   
   AHHH, the good old day. LOL I Say that with tongue firmly planted in cheek.  Glad you made it thru.
   From the pov of the boy friend, because i was also an incredibally needy and attached person in my earlier days (Just a few years ago)  I t is very hard for us because we feel like we are out of control because we cant help you. ANd we want to help and be there so very very very much. We tend to smother those we love by being to "there" for you. In the last few years i have noiticed that i no longer am that needy person who needs to be all up in my wifes business all the time. THat also corispondes with when i got into talk therpay and started medication. 
   Anyway take a deep breath, and let it go. Peace comes from acceptance  and accepting that you are who you are and there will be days like these has helped me greatly in achieving peace in my life. Just do your best next time (if there is a next time) and thats the best you can do for the both of you. THat and time together will allow him to grow comfortable and secure in your relationship.
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   Posted 6/1/2010 6:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Belle,
I had a night like that years ago, almost exactly the same minus the cops. I had to laugh when you said it made your night when you passed the breathalizer with flying colors, it would have made my night too being in that kind of mood! I am glad that you both got through it and you didn't drive all that way in the state you were in. You sound like you really know yourself and how being bipolar affects you (and him). All I can say is over the years, through different relationships, it was a very bumpy ride until I met my current bf. And although current bf and I have issues with my illness, we try to deal. All those other years, I wanted to ignore my illness and not deal with it, so those crazy nights, really were out of control at times.
I have since learned not to ignore my illness and take my meds regularly! And OMG, I just realized I forgot a dose today! LOL, Ugh! rolleyes
Keep us posted!
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   Posted 6/1/2010 9:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Wow...please don't take this the wrong way but you made me smile. I thought things like that only went thru my head. I read what you wrote to my husband and we both agreed that sounded a lot like us. He goes thru a little more drastic measures to keep me from leaving though. He'd park his truck behind my car and refuse to move it. I'd never make it past my driveway before he'd make me come back into the house. Once he gets his way and I resolve to let him feel like he's in control then I'd lock myself in the bathroom or bedroom
until I cooled off. He usually gives me my space unless he thinks I'm gonna hurt myself. Then he sits by the door. I normally rationalize that if I want to make a break for it I'd wait till his guard was down but by then I've normally come down a notch or two.
I'm sorry it was such a crazy night for you, I'm happy you're ok.
Faith... is the art of holding on to things your reason once accepted, despite your changing moods.

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   Posted 6/2/2010 12:25 PM (GMT -7)   
I feel's a hard thing to do. I suppose it's not easy to be on the other side. My husband has been putting up with my ever changing moods for the last 19yrs. It's hard to know sometimes whether it's me or is it something he's actually done to deserve my anger.'s hard to distinguish. My switch flips so quickly. At the end of the day though, when the smoke clears, I know he loves me no matter what I say or do.
Faith... is the art of holding on to things your reason once accepted, despite your changing moods.

Bipolar Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder
meds: pristq, lamotrigine, ambien cr, Xanax

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   Posted 7/15/2010 9:34 PM (GMT -7)   
I threw my marriage away trying to self med these same episodes...I wish I had known that this was the problem all along then...I know exactly how you feel...I am glad that you guys are okay now..:)
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