AHHH, the good old day. LOL I Say that with tongue firmly planted in cheek. Glad you made it thru.
From the pov of the boy friend, because i was also an incredibally needy and attached person in my earlier days (Just a few years ago) I t is very hard for us because we feel like we are out of control because we cant help you. ANd we want to help and be there so very very very much. We tend to smother those we love by being to "there" for you. In the last few years i have noiticed that i no longer am that needy person who needs to be all up in my wifes business all the time. THat also corispondes with when i got into talk therpay and started medication.
Anyway take a deep breath, and let it go. Peace comes from acceptance and accepting that you are who you are and there will be days like these has helped me greatly in achieving peace in my life. Just do your best next time (if there is a next time) and thats the best you can do for the both of you. THat and time together will allow him to grow comfortable and secure in your relationship.
"If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
"It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself." Happy Bill
Meds. Respirdal 0.5 a day, more if needed.