You know i get the feeling sometimes that people feel that mania is way worse than depression. FYI, i have never wanted to kill my self when i am manic. And many docs seem to have a hard time understanding there is different levels of mania, that it isnt allways spring break at cancun and thelma and louise style and intensity of manias.
I myself often enjoy a mild hypomania 5 days out of every 7 with a few days of a slight blue feeling on the two i dont get them. I will take this anyday over anthing that has the words sucidial in it. I have been down that road, and let me say that not much scares me, but that really did.
I do get days of mild to no symptons, and i enjoy them when i do as a break.
Honestly if you have a choice i would take mania that is controled over any kind of depression.
"If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
"It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself." Happy Bill
Meds. Respirdal 0.5 a day, more if needed.