Yep, I admit it: I sometimes feel that I'm just gonna lose it. I'll be sitting somewhere, and the thought will cross my mind: "What in the world am I doing here?" I'll feel panicky. I'll want to flee. I'll feel that I'm gonna go absolutely wildly crazy. I breathe deeply and try to maintain some sort of equilibrium. Somehow, I make it through. But it stinks, doesn't it?
Somehow, I feel it's better to be around other people than to be alone. If I did lose it, for example, wouldn't it be better if I were with people, I ask myself? Wouldn't they get help for me? Which often leads me to not want to be at home, alone, by myself. OK, I have animals that I take care of and that mean a lot to me, and they're at home, waiting for me. But I try to be out as much as possible.
I wish I could say something that would help. But all I can tell you is that yes, I often feel I'm gonna lose it. You're not alone.
All best wishes and thoughts,
Havana, newbie member of the group
My Rxs: Invega, Clonazepam, Lexapro, Mirapex, Topamax