Yea, i'm fine. Just been way busy with family stuff the last two weeks, working way to hard. Things are calming down but i can feel the toll that much upheavel had on my brain. Tried to talk to my wife about it, she said that she was tired of hearing about "my" issues. Honestly it felt like she was more upset that the spotlight wasnt on her. Which knowing her as i do is what i suspect, she is very very self centered. Thats where the forgiveness came in, i decided to just forgive her and move on, however i won't forget what she said, it spoke volumes to me about her and my relationship with her.
Since that happend i decided that i was no longer going to try and run my life around her, i am instead going to excersise more and if i want to go somewhere on a day trip thats what i will do. Worst case is that i take big ole Thor with me and we have a good time together. Still i don't know whether its the ADHD or something else but i just refuse to carry negative emotions with me, maybe its a gift that god gave me to help offset the BP. Who knows, i would like to think that god just didnt throw me to the wolves without someways to take care of myself.
Anyway my infection is gone, it took 3 rounds of antibiotics to do it but YAY its dead. I even rode my bike yesterday for the first time in a month, OUCH. LOL LOL LOL But that will change, i am going to ride a lot more.
Thats life in Billville. Workign each day to find a way around, over, under, or thru a problem and if those are all a failure than acceptance.
"If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
"It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself." Happy Bill
Meds. Respirdal 0.5 a day, more if needed.