I can do pretty much anything - depending on the mood.
It's very frustrating. My Myers-Briggs personality type changes with my mood. When I am manic/hypomanic, I am a strong INTJ - the scientist. Which is why my choice of pre-vet study. But I've come up as almost every other personality type at one time of another. When I was a senior in high school, almost every instructor does personality testing to help students choose what they might want to do in life. I was not yet diagnosed bipolar, but was having some of the worst rapid cycling and almost daily mixed episodes. I got so many conflicting results, I thought I would go crazy! I *knew* there was something wrong, but no one believed me. (I also thought I was bipolar the first time I heard about
the disorder when I was a freshman in high school, and I confided in the teacher who brushed me off and told me it wasn't possible because "I see you every day")
I loved being in college, the challenges, learning things, being in a community. Only seeing my son 1 day a week was the final straw. Or maybe it was losing my house, moving, adding 2 hours commuting, major depression, dissociative episodes, medication side effects, or missing class for days while I was in the hospital? I have no way to know - it all happened at once. :(
I dearly wish I could go back, but after my world falling down and dropping out of college 3 times in 6 years, I can't do it again. At least not yet.
I never could be consistent in the arts. I suffer from a total lack of motivation, and my artistic ability lasts as long as the mood. Usually 2 hours tops, before I either bottom out of I'm off into manic rage. I did learn to work fast enough to complete pencil works in 2 hours, but my artistic ability is so sporatic I can't imagine it becoming a career. I am just hoping to take advantage of the moods as they come and try to make saleable art then, to sell later for a little income.
Ocassionally, I have a gift for writing. Rarely. But this morning was one of those times. :)
Sometimes I am a strong public speaker and effective group leader. Sometimes I have no voice. Sometimes I can manage a business, and sometimes I can't even feed myself.
Because I'm a rapid-cycler (ultraradian, actually), my moods haven't lasted long enough to succeed at anything for a long time. When I have a long hypomainc or manic episode (my longest was a year and a half) I am pretty much awesome and can handle even high-stress deadline-oriented work. The rest of the time, I'm lucky if I can work training dogs one day a week. I depend on the few word-of-mouth referrals I get because I haven't been able to do marketing. I know what I need to do. It's been 6 YEARS and it's still not done.
I'm hijacking my own thread! lol I'll shut up now. :)