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Date Joined May 2010
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   Posted 8/10/2010 5:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone :)
I woke up this morning way earlier than usual.... felt completley refreshed.. which is also very unusual :)  and I went straight to my mood chart I have been keeping ... I know im getting hypo today ... I have noticed that I have been "normal" for two weeks now..... with no switch in mood.... its very strange , bc I ahve never gone that long before.... its usually no longer than three days during my mood switches...
My first visit with pdoc is thursday .. looking forward to that .... so much has happend over the past two weeks ... I have been working alot .. which I truly beleive helps with moods.... also I have been very sick with pneumonia the past week .... BF and I have gotten into numerous fights about numerous thigns ... sigh... mostly the kids ... But mostly he jsut creeps me out .... I have been talking to my family about the things he does and they think its strange as wel ....   He is seeming more and more jekyll and hyde like .... its creepy....
For instance: one day last week before I left to go to work , he was saying how happy he was that he was able to stay home with the kids ( our work hours are different) that way it saves me money , not having to pay a sitter , and he was all " well do whatever it takes " etc etc
That night when i got home from work  he is screaming at me when I walk in the door " I dont know why I am stuck here babysitting every night , I cant take it everyday"
Which was really confusing.... as you could probably imagine.. considering our conversation earlier that day ....
 last week when I became ill and was running high fever... he thought it was jsut depression and was calling me names like droopy.... which is jsut cruel ... but then he got sick and I hate to admit it , but that made me feel better ha ha   he shouldne have called me names for being sick... or because he thought I was depressed ... .serves him right.... 
yesterday ... he was happy , upbeat , playing with the kids .... he was himself .... This morning he got up and was annyed that he couldnt find something ... then he sat on the couch and stared ... so I asked " are you ok?"  He sd " what do you mean , am I ok??"   " I have alot on my mind, but that doesnt mean im not ok!!"  " why would you ask me if im ok??"   I sd ummmmm..... bc you are jsut sitting there staring into space with a worried look on your face , and you dont look ok.....
yesterday he begged me to take the day off work bc I was still running fever... saying things like : you need to rest "    and this morning hes all in my face " what are you going to do today?? arent you going to get things done before you go to work??  Im like .. yeah ... ok ....  you can go to work now ....
Im seriously wondering whats up with his moods..... He has " traits of aspergers " meaning he doesnt have it full blown.... but his son does.... so im wondering if its the aspergers .... or something else .....
He is beginning to seem more and more like ME......

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   Posted 8/10/2010 5:58 AM (GMT -7)   
My XDH says he has asperger's but he fits the diagnostic criteria for bipolar (easily). And he self-diagnoses. rolleyes

You don't have to put up with being treated like that. open communication, professional help... Maybe things will turn around for the better? But maybe not?
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   Posted 8/10/2010 6:21 AM (GMT -7)   
its strange how i never really put it all together..... it was actually my dad who made the comment.. about the jekyll and hyde...

I can always tell when he flips .... its like night and day .... sometimes I consider his behavior borderline abusive.... but he seems to think that he has put up with so much from me , that it sort of cancels his out .... He cannot deal with stress... period.. and I am his punching bag ... he gets very overwhelmed by the world , And I understand this is an asperger trait? and he blows up ... starts pickin on me , could be something as simple as the way I folded the laundry... a month ago..... but you better believe he wil find something!

Im considering asking him to see a pdoc ......

happy bill
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   Posted 8/10/2010 8:20 AM (GMT -7)   


  WHn i got sick back in may, and it lasted  the better part of a month, my whole BP side seemed to shut down completely. It was almost 4 weeks of pure peace and normalicy. Weird but true. ALl the hypomanis, and depressions stopped, i was just bill, plain, relaxed, sick bill.

  It's funny you mention your boy friend possibly being BP also. I'm starting to believe the same of my wife.  Have been for a while. They say that oppisiates attract but i wonder if us BP folk might be drawn together. Weird, but from looking at this board and people i know outside of here who are BP it does seem we do find others with BP more often than not. Or BP is much, much more widely prevelant out there then we think. Perhaps mental illness is the human condition.

   On that completely happy note i will leave you. I hope you get your kid thing settled out. saving money is good, but either way, kids are stress all the time.


   "If Life Gives You Lemons, Make Lemonade"
   "It isn't my fault that i am BiPolar, It is my responsibility how i treat it so that i don't hurt others or myself."  Happy Bill
   Meds. Respirdal  0.5 a day, more if needed.
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