Today is the most perfect day I have had in a very long time

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   Posted 8/20/2010 5:16 PM (GMT -7)   
I finally am at my boyfriend's house, first time seeing him in two months. I got here last night at midnight, woke up this morning next to him, we watched a movie in bed all morning and then walked to a nearby diner and he bought me breakfast. we've been together all day and i have not once felt a dip in my mood. i've just been so happy all day. not manic happy, but genuinely in a good upbeat happy mood. the only thing is that this morning i took xanax. I took it yesterday for the car ride and i took it again today. i think the reason i have most of my mood swings is because i have severe stress and anxiety and i think that if you take the anxiety away i feel PERFECT. my friend gave me 4 of her xanax and i have two left..

i'm going to my psychiatrist on the 30th. i don't want to come right out and say 'please please please prescribe me a low dose of xanax!!!' but i really think that on bad days i would benefit a lot from having xanax around. i don't feel high or loopy, i just feel like i'm missing my normal anxiety and as a result i feel really good. what can i do? obviously if i come right out and ask my pdoc for a certain prescription he's going to take it the wrong way like i am some dishonest person but i don't know what else to do. today was perfect. i know to an extent it was just seeing my boyfriend but even on days where i'm really happy, i still feel really nervous and i have at least one mood swing. i'm stuck!!
"crazy" french girl with bipolar II

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   Posted 8/20/2010 7:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Glad you're having a good time with your bf! Take time and enjoy it as much as possible hun! I'm not really sure what to do about your doc and the xanax, I just have one suggestion for careful not to become dependent on it. There was a women who had panic attacks every day, every few hrs! She would take xanax every time she had one. The doc said she became dependent on it and it actually made things worse by her taking it so much. Hope you get what you need though to help with the anxiety. Good luck.

I know I'm not perfect, and I don't live to be...But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean. - Bob Marley

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   Posted 8/20/2010 7:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi voix. I have an excellent workbook on anxiety/phobias. A friend with anxiety gave it to me and told me to pass it on to someone who needs it when I am done.

Do you want me to mail it to you?
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   Posted 8/21/2010 6:53 AM (GMT -7)   
I would love a book tortoise, actually I believe you were going to send me another one too but I'm not sure what happened there. I have a new address now that I'm back to school
"crazy" french girl with bipolar II

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   Posted 8/21/2010 7:02 AM (GMT -7)   
I take Klonipin for anxiety. I have never taken more than prescribed and never
'wanted to.' Not everyone gets addicted to pills for anxiety. I have found they
help more than anything with no adverse side effects. Sometimes I go a whole week without needing one but I have them on hand when I get really bad anxiety. When I get bad
anxiety workbooks, breathing, exercize or meditation don't help. Sorry, I need something to cut it and klonipin works. The previous adjuncts may help reduce episodes but when anxiety comes on nothing but the pill helps.
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