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Date Joined Sep 2010
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   Posted 9/7/2010 11:55 PM (GMT -7)   
So... I responded to one of your topics before reading the one that says to please read before posting... oops. Sorry about that.

Well, I'm a 30 year-old perpetual student, musician and single father. I was diagnosed with Bipolar I about 10 years ago (come to think of it... exactly 10 years ago last month) when I was prescribed Paxil for my depression and became so manic I decided to do some stupid stuff which led me to become severely psychotic with a fun (not really) stay at the psychiatric hospital for a few weeks.

I've done the rounds with all the medications... trying to find the right cocktail that makes life livable. Currently I'm taking Lamictal, Wellbutrin, Adderal, Propranolol, and Abilify. I don't quite remember the dosages, but for the first three I know it's the max... I just started the beta-blocker and Abilify.

I started school again last week... I haven't been too successful with it these past few years, nor have I been successful with work. Haven't held a job for more than a day in nearly 4 years... but I won't get into that yet. I take classes at the local colleges all the time. I have about 300 "attempted" units but only 100 completed... lots of "W"s (withdrawing) on my transcript.

I have a 10 year-old son (yes, he was born a few months before I went cuckoo for the first time) and he is my world. He's what I live for and I share custody of him with his mother. She's remarried with a little girl and I get along with them all. He's starting to have that family unit with his mother, sister, and stepfather, though... so I'm sorta being pulled away a bit. I won't get into all that, though.

Hmm... what else? Well, my diagnosis includes ADHD and Social Anxiety, and along with the Bipolar I it's mixed-mania and psychosis... I'm not sure of the current wording for it. When I was first diagnosed it was Bipolar I NOS (not otherwise specified, i think).

I guess that's all I've got to say at the moment. I just wanted to introduce myself before I head off to sleep. It's my son's first day of school tomorrow and i need to get up early and help him get ready. Crazy kid... (in a good, kid way... but with our family history, who knows...)

I tend to deal with all of this with a light-hearted, humorous manner, but I am completely aware of the seriousness of what we go through and please know that my way to approach things is just my own way of coping... I know humor can be frustrating to those going through deep depression, so I apologize in advance.

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Date Joined Jan 2010
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   Posted 9/8/2010 6:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi there! Welcome!

We (I) do appreciate humor around here and we've been missing some. Happy Bill is our cheerful, sunny guy who is going though a raw deal right now and isn't posting as much. We miss him. And we miss humor. I doubt you will offend or upset.
Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder

Depakote, Abilify - FAIL; Seroquel - Epic Fail
Lamictal 200mg, Klonopin 0.5mg as needed, starting Seroquel XR 50mg soon

red lightening
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Date Joined Jan 2009
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   Posted 9/8/2010 7:34 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Leapling...welcome to the site! Looking forward to more posts. What are you studying in school?
I too have had numerous jobs..looking again for one now!

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Date Joined May 2009
Total Posts : 174
   Posted 9/8/2010 7:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi there and welcome! Humor is fantastic and often needed here, so don't feel the need to hold back too much.

I know I'm not perfect, and I don't live to be...But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean. - Bob Marley

Bipolar I
Anxiety Disorder

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Date Joined Feb 2010
Total Posts : 181
   Posted 9/8/2010 8:49 AM (GMT -7)   
hi leapling and welcome to the board ! :) sounds like you have a good handle on whats going on with you .
thanks for the intro...
so what kind of musician are you ?
what are you studying in school ? :)

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Date Joined Sep 2010
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   Posted 9/8/2010 10:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the welcome everyone! Well, naturally I am studying psychology :-) What better way to get a handle on what's goin on in the noggin, eh? Really, though, I'm working on finishing a certificate to be a mental health worker. I've been through a lot and I think the best thing is to try and help others who are going through or have been through similar situations. It's a pretty neat. The program "prepares students to serve emotionally, cognitively, and developmentally challenged clients in community facility settings that provide therapeutic intervention, rehabilitation, and recovery services".

As for the music, I'm sorta going through a rut in that area. I used to do it professionally... playing in bands, recording albums, etc... but struggling with my illness has made it difficult to be reliable. I started out playing the piano when I was very young and have picked up various other instruments over the years. In bands I usually ended up as the bass player. All types of music... the first two bands I was in were flamenco and funk, the last two were ska and heavy metal with everything in between smilewinkgrin I have always and always will play the piano as my personal therapy. I've gone through long periods of not sitting down at it and that's when I know I'm really depressed, but whenever I get back onto it I realize why it was that I was so depressed.

Thanks again for the welcome. I'm off to my abnormal psychology class right now... last week we were discussing mood disorders... go figure... wink

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Date Joined Apr 2010
Total Posts : 255
   Posted 9/8/2010 12:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi there and welcome leapling....I like your humor, it really works when the world feels like it's crashing. I'm a student kinda like yourself (applied design and visual arts) 35 with a 10yr old daughter and 6yr old son. I've only been diagnosed with BP for about 6 months so I'm still trying to figure it all out. If you ever need an ear, I'm usually around.
Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win.

Bipolar Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder

meds: Seroquel

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Date Joined Mar 2006
Total Posts : 1191
   Posted 9/8/2010 12:50 PM (GMT -7)   

Welcome yeah Leapling!

I've been here for many years and this is the best forum out there. We're a family here and it's very comforting.

Sounds like you really do know what you're dealng with, which is half the battle and we all need to pat ourselves on the back for it. All of us here give each other so much support and information and I think it's all key for us to survive. We make it a priority to learn what bipolar is and how we can deal.

We also have a great sense of humor around here, so join Bill (our moderator) in being one of the funny ones. In depressions, sure sometimes we don't find the humor, but other times it's helped us all.

I wish you the best with your courses. I work for three psychiatrists at a hospital so I have mental health care professionals all around me every day and I like it. I can relate of course; although the patients of course don't know that. So now that we know you're studying psychology, we'll bug you more than anyone LOL

Anyway, cheers for work day is over.

Welcome again & hugs,



Bipolar II
Anxiety Disorder/Panic Attacks

Meds-Lamictal 300 mg, Seroquel XR 100 mg, Clonazepam .5mg as needed
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