thanks again red. i still dont wanna call the pdoc. wait a couple days see which direction i'm going, first.
i am taking my meds as prescribed, last change was about a month ago.. and then again 2 weeks before that.. so we'll see.
thanks, i am probably hypersensitive to my thoughts and state... because they affect me so much, i guess? not sure why.
it could be a mixed state i'm thinking too...
i have had suicidal ideation in the past this is something a little different. but if it gets to that i'll definitely call him.
i like that buddhist quote.. i should practice it daily..
All Comparison Leads to Misery.
I guess what really bothered me about this latest thing is that hte thoughts felt out of my control. It wasnt like i was thinking along and comparing myself to others as part of normal thinking, it was like intrusive thoughts in my head just jumping in there.
thanks for letting me get this out, it helps me think it through ~ :)