living well said...
That is your decision to give up. I won't judge you for that. You've got to want get well. I'm just one person here but I think if that is your choice you may have to balance that with the needs of others here. "I'm going to top myself" type posts can be very distressing to other members, and I think may even be banned. Having a look at the guidelines at the top of the forum may help??? I haven't looked at them for a while. I'm not a moderator. I'm not about to take on the role of watchdog for the site. I'm just someone here, doing the best I can to get better.
Listen to her Lynn. I don't know if you are in a relationship, but people here know I have done EVERYTHING possible to try to support my wife, but I cannot let her destroy me as well as herself. YOU
work to get well. Everyone on here, and in your real life could hold your hand, but it will not make one iota of difference, if you don't want to get treatment. I know this first hand.
LW, is right. If you want to self destruct, that is your business, but don't expect us to cheer you on or hold your hand as you document the process. As someone else said, BP is an illness, not an excuse for bad behavior.