I am just going to start by saying that I am extremely bummed that once again my new meds are not working for me. I have been suffering through a major depression since February and even though I'm not in bed with the sheets over my head I cannot get out of the grip of this depression. My Pdoc has tried different drugs, but I seem to be getting better and then either the deep dark blues come or I get into an agitated state. I am just sick and tired of it and how I feel I can't be the wife and mother I have been. I know there is an end to this...I went through my last and only major depression about
15 years ago, it just is so much harder now having kids and being older. I am really trying to be strong, but would love to hear from others who have been there and done that. My Pdoc is out of town until next week and I need to "grin and bear" it for now. I am truly greatful for the good days, just hate slipping back into the depression. Thanks for letting me vent...it does make me feel a little bit better.
450 mg Lithium
5 mg Lamotrigine
1/8 of 5 mg Saphris
.25 mg Xanax as needed