Posted 7/9/2011 12:54 AM (GMT -6)
How's everyone doing? It's been awhile since I've been on here. I'm stressed so I decided to come and vent.
We've been saving to buy a house for a few months, but it seems like every single time we get ahead, something always comes up...
The one thing about stress for me is, it leads to depression, and that's a bad place to be, but that's where in headed. I've skipped my therapy appointments for the past 2 weeks... I just haven't felt like talking. She's concerned and keeps suggesting that we adjust my meds... I hate when they do that...
On another note, my ex husband hasn't seen the kids all summer and rarely has even called... Its to the point that the kids don't even want to talk to him and they're only 6 and 4... I don't know what to do about it, I can't force them, but I don't want him to think I'm trying to keep them from him coz I'd love a break lol... Tomorrow is OPERATION FIND A SWIMMING POOL FOR THE KIDS!!!!! If they ask me to buy a pool one more time I'll scream lol, sooo oim caving in and buying one I guess.
How was everyone's 4th of July?... Mine was kind of depressing... This was the first year in my entire life that my mom hasn't had a big party and bbq.... We always had the best fireworks, sparklers for all the kids, etc... But, mom had to work... It just brought back so many memories of my childhood and got me thinking about how much things have changed.
We used to go all out for every holiday, parents would dress up for halloween right along w/ the kids,... Huge scavenger hunts/ easter egg hunts on Easter sunday... Outrageous, amazing, unforgettable Christmas... Everything's different.
I hate thinking about that kind of stuff... Back to reality...
Hope you all are doing well. Thanks for listening.
Bi Polar 1
Anxiety/ Panic disorder
Major depressive disorder
Scoliosis/ Degenerative disc disorder/ Arthritis
Lamictal 300mg daily
Seroquel 300mg daily
Klonopin 0.5mg as needed
Xanax 1mg as needed
Vicodine 750mg as needed
Norco 10/325. 3 times per day
"Never settle for less than you deserve, have the courage to walk away when you know you should, live with a purpose, love with passion, fight with all you have, know what you're worth, embrace your potential, understand the odds, learn the rules, then.... conquer the impossible"