i really messed up today though. I accidently hit my fiance, it was like a play hit but it was hard and i feel so bad now I dont know what happend. I was abused my entire life and then that happend a week after getting out of the hospital. what the heck. He said it was fine, but i feel terrible. What should i do to prevent it from ever ever happening again. I dont see myself ever out of anger, but what are some precautions i should take because rite now i feel like a monster. What could i do to make it up to him?