Respirdal was my wonder drug. It allowed me about
a year of peace to relearn what "normal" is.
Once i got a good feel for normal, my doctor and i worked to take me off respirdal and get some of the energy back. That took a good two years, but now im living without any meds at all. Its all making good decisions, coping mechisims, and the occasional use of respirdal as needed.
It scared the heck out of me also, but im glad i took it and got back to normal.
Anything that can calm you down and get you some peace is worth trying right now. Once you find peace you should live with it for a long while and kinda give yourself a well earned rest. Only then should you try working with your meds.
But if i ever start haveing huge problems again, i will go back on it in a minute.