Here is my question, and in this i am just wondering.
Why is it i dont hate my ex? I experience emotions, i feel them, but i honestly have no hate for her. I wish her on ly well and want her to be happy.
But people i talk to all say i am nuts, they are all hateful and angry about their ex's. My ex has been really hurtfull this weekend also, she seems to need to viliify me. I just dont get it. Of course she is mixing prescriptions and alchol so thats allways a stable mix. LOL LOL
But i have to explain to people i date that i cant or wont allow myself to have hate in my heart. Yes she stabbed me, but i honestly dont feel hate for her. I dont get upset when she goes out on dates, i just want her to find the happiness she never could have with me.
Sometimes i just feel so out of place, everyone is allways talking about being angry and upset about this thing or another. Im not sure if its the BP or the Buddism that allows me this peace. But wasnt it Jesus who said to meet anger with love, hate with forgivness?
Maybe i just need to go to bed and reset.
SOrry to ramble, i hope everyone had a great weekend.