I am so sorry to learn that you are just coming out of a manic phase of your disorder. I am not an expert re this topic as I have major depressive disorder so I can only imagine how difficult your dx is to live with.
If I may ask do you have a good Dr. handling your care and are your taking medication ?
Please do not feel you are losing loved ones because you have Bipolar because I have trouble sometimes with my family not understanding my anxiety and depression. I have been told by several relatives that they cannot be around a sad person and it hurts to hear those comments.
Talk with your Dr. and ask him/her to please try to get you to a point where you do not cycle so frequently or as intensely.
May I say a little pray for you ?