Wow! You all are my twins! I can relate to every single thing I've read so far, except materialism.
Especially dogs! I have 2 dobermans that are my life besides hubby! I knew when I was a child I didn't want children, only a wonderful husband to share my life with. I also feel that way about shelters, I can't even go in. They are all there because people are irresponsible, don't have time to spend with them and they eventually become just a bother with behaviour problems from lack of attention and training. Very sad.
I paint and sketch and play piano (classical). I thought when I got stable the creativity would go away, but I'm actually a better painter now, I don't hate every single work like I used to, haha. (Perfectionist)!
Also have no female friends; sick of being judged. My husband is my everything and the best friend I ever had. I just can't relate to other "normal" women and obviously bipolar isn't something you can hide from someone who gets close. Bummer. Also don't have a lot of love for people in general, it seems so many are just ignorant about people in general, IMHO of course.
I really hope I don't sound like I know everything on this board, I just want to help because it is a very complex illness, but I have PLENTY of disorders, one of them borderline personality; it seems almost all bipolars have this problem, too!
Danarx, I do hope you get pregnant soon; how long have you been trying?
I just love it here, because we can all relate to each other. I have never had that before. I wish you all were here in Dallas, haha!
Well, thanks for listening to me ramble!