Hello, My name is Starr. I have Scitzoaffective/Bipolar disorder, GAD, Panic attacks, Some OCD tendencies, some depression, thyroid disorder, back problems, IBS. I'm on Latuda, Propranolol for my panic attacks, thyroid medicine, Klonopin, IBS meds, Trazadone, Tramadol, and Flexaril.
I have a bad bad habit of picking my skin. Any scab or bump I have to pick. Impulsively. My skin has to feel smooth. And it makes me feel better. I pick the small bumps on my thigh, bumps on my legs, my face, anywhere it is, I have to pick or pick and squeeze till I get it all gone and my skin is smooth again. This is something I do very often because the scabs of course re-appear. I bite my skin around my nails sometimes bringing blood. I also have pica. I'm ashamed to say it but I eat the skin around my nails and such. Please don't respond meanly to me about
it. I know it's gross.
My thing is, I do this sometimes without realizing it, the skin picking, It's like i'm unconsciously doing it. Everytime of course I leave bad places on me. Scars up my arm, that thankfully do fade after awhile. My face I try not to pick but it always happens. I have one on my face that I've picking till it's nothing but a flat red place. Same thing with the two under my chin. I'm sure my legs have a few too.
I don't believe these text book answers to fixing this. Meditating. HA! Reversal of bad habits. HA! Therapy. HA! Nothing has worked. I'm a little more aware of it, but don't want to stop. I've done it since I was a child.
IS there anything else I can try to stop this? As much as I love it, I don't need to. I keep a place in my scalp if i can so it doesn't show. I kept one scab going for an entire year on my scalp by picking, Then busting it
open again so it would form another scab. First thing in the morning that what I'd do before even getting out of bed. It's pretty bad. But I don't have scabs and scars everywhere. I try to keep it where people can't see. These on my face embarrasses me.
Please some one has to know some ways to get myself to STOP this insanity!
Post Edited (Angelwolf) : 11/4/2013 10:26:33 AM (GMT-7)