OK, yes I have undergone the questonnaires over and over, because I was in denial too. Most everyone is at some point, even tho they improve on the meds, they tend to stop it thinking maybe, just maybe everyone is wrong. Then they find out, people and docs aren't wrong!
I really wish EVERY pdoc would do those tests. GPs never do, I don't know how many of them just treat with an antidepressant. They don't ask anymore than that, and often miss the mania part.
I have seen many pdocs over the past 15 years or so, and every single one has done those tests, even tho they know after about 10 minutes of talking to me that I am manic.
Just trust your pdoc, Shan. He's right! And everyone around you, if they have found out anything about BP knows it too. You know deep down that you have this illness, and that you always will. You have got to work on the acceptance in order to work effectively with your pdoc and get better.
No one wants to believe they have it because there is such a stigma about mental illness, unfortunately in this archaic (sp) society we live in. But I will tell you, we're about the only country that treats these things as they should be treated medically or even recognizes mental illness as that - an illness. People are ignorant and blind, and many don't want to learn about it, for some reason, even tho their loved one is affected.
Turn to the friends and/or family members that DO support you. It's a huge help to talk to someone who isn't judging you. And keep it from everyone else, if you can.
The aggression/irritability is very very common in mania! Surely you know that by now. And studies show that the majority of BPs had traumatic childhoods, me included, usually involving some type of abuse, physical, emotional, sexual and/or neglect. It suggests, but not proves, that trauma can trigger the gene or whatever causes it to activate. Just a theory, still a mystery. But what a coincidence, huh?
You know you have us anytime! We will always be here to talk and listen.
Post Edited (psychnurse) : 7/25/2005 7:40:44 AM (GMT-6)