I'm 15 yrs old and I suffer from bp...I havent been diagnoised by a doctor yet but I know I have this depression. My friends have noticed the changes in me for bout 3 years now and my mom says I am but still I havent been taken to the doctor. You may be thinking that I cant have it because a doctor hasnt gave me the heads up that I do but I just want help! What I experience? Well I'm always sad and most of the time I start crying all of a sudden and I dont stop for hours. Sometimes I'll be upbeat and I just start jumping around. I get upset and mad and I start yelling loudly. Ive been suicidal since Ive been 11 or 12 and also well I have a cutting problem. I'm always putting myself down and I feel really worthless. I lock myself in my room and I stay in my home for weeks at a time cause I dont want to be outside or around people. I easily distracted and I blank out and forget what im doing or what im saying. Also I have panic or anxiety attacks and also I see things. I stay up all night without being tired and when I try to sleep I have trouble. And what experience is really hard on me...So Im here seeking advice on my problem and what I should do?