I'm so sorry you're having an episode. You are fully hypomanic now, and I am just going to recommend you nip it in the bud before you do something stupid. You know what I mean, you are having flight of ideas, paranoia and bad dreams, all are common. You are running the risk of full mania. Even hypo will cause you to do things you will regret. I don't have to tell you all this, you know. You ARE bipolar. You have to deal with it. Ellie is totally right, these swings are dangerous for a fetus, so, there is a risk of not medicating too and here are tons of risks when you're pregnant. Things happen even when you're perfect! And don't forget, you have a husband to think about too. He deosn't deserve to live with that when it's fixable.
Just trust your pdoc, it is his/her specialty, they are the expert. If you insist on staying on Zoloft, at least get a heavy duty stabilizer. Well, lol, get one anyway! You don't want to end up in the hospital. That's all I'm going to say, it's ultimately your choice, I hope you make the right one.
Oh, one more thing (of course, lol) what goes up must come down. If you let yourself go for long in the hypo state, you will come crashing down, this is the time of year. That always happens anyway, we all know that, it's either/or.
As for the moodiness, I know, I haven't been exactly helpful lately, either. But, that's what this board is for, I think in general we are doing a good job despite the fact that everyone is cycling. It is the time of year for that, if you aren't aware fall and spring are nightmares for us, it has to do with the amount of sunlight we get.
I have an appt. with my pdoc in a couple of hours (thank god!) I can't take it anymore. But, with rapid cycling there is only so much that can be done, at least it's not full fledged.
I hpe you feel better, Dana, I really do, we're all here for you.
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