Thank you, sweetie, I needed that! And yes, it was a good cry! Thank you for that.
Well, it seems that I am starting a nice hypomania going. I just worked out super hard, feeling too much adrenaline. God, what's the deal here! I am not going to take the Seroquel until tonight tho, after feeling that way just this a.m. no way am I going to drug myself so I can go right back. Huh uh. That's not the right thing to do, but I dont' really care right now. I feel a meanness coming on too, like if anything at all pissed me off it would be really bad. So I'm going to stay out of public, because that ALWAYS does it! Starlite, do you have an aversion to gonig into public? I do, in fact I am virtually a recluse - I have always been that way, really, but now that I don't work the only places I will go is the store (I make myself go daily just to get out for a short while), it's kind of a force myself to be normal thing. And I like going to the movies, but I have to have a certain row and the aisle seat, if we don't get that row and seat, we go to the next movie, we get there about 45 min early. How messed up is that???? But last time we went to the mall to just look around it was crowded and I had a panic attack, couldn't breathe and had to leave pronto. It sucks, I am paranoid that people are looking at me or have intent to harm me. I can't get past that one, for some reason. Like I said to you the other day I have many many personality issues, too. I am also borderline personality, avoidant, and slightly schitzo affective. Unfortunately, BP comes with many little bonus problems that aren't usually helped much with medicine. But, I don't do therapy because I would have to go every day for the rest of my life to get any better, so I'm glad my hubby loves me the way I am, he stays home with me pretty much every minute, but he goes shopping every once in a while for a few hours. (I HATE shopping!) Good thing, right, not spending any money, lol.
Ok, rambling again, can you tell I feel better! I could barely type much less think of anything to say this a.m.!
Thanks for posting hon, and how are you feeling? I know you got a shower, that's great. Still doing better? BTW I don't think I asked you what meds you're taking. I'm always interested in peoples cocktails, lol
Variety is the spice of life, BP is the key