Posted 4/8/2015 2:47 PM (GMT -8)
Okay, the past few months wasnt feeling myself and was starting to feel anxious alot and panicking over ramdom thoughts in my head. Gradually i felt this getting worse and more frequent. Started to feel not alive (like i was in a dream). FINALLY last month while at work i had a nervous breakdown and had terrible racing thoughts, some self harm some of just OCD variety where my mind was just puzzled. Next day i hit rock bottom lost all drive and it was a struggle to even go to work the next few days. Sleep i was having a problem with before this as well.
this sounds more like depression BUT last year earlier i was feeling myself just happy, april i had a panic attack and july 4th i had one too but i was able to return to my old self then it started gradually going downhill the rest of the year and into this year. Like a 180 degree turn.
Im thinking bipolar/OCD because ever since that breakdown ill feel like im becoming myself again, then a thought pops into my head and sends me down again. My psychiatric nurse gave me klonopin for the panic and anxiety and has helped but racing thoughts and irrational thoughts of doing self harm still have not gone away. Its frustrating and i want the ryan back. She put me on effexer XR before her month off monday but after the first dose it was awful, shaking and nauseous and trouble functioning, made panic/anxiety worse. stopped that asap and still feeling like crap. My question is during our initial visit she said she was leaning heavy towards bipolar. So why not a mood stabilizer like seroquel or latuda instead of something of an SSRI?. I took zoloft for depression in high school now 28 and had a nasty reaction to it. Sorry for the long post just trying to be descriptive as possible