ua, and everyone reading this: thank you.
your kind words mean more than you know. today is worse than yesterday. with the exception of going to the bathroom (two feet from my bedroom door), i have not left my bed in a couple days. i'm not eating. i have some family around the city, but i have already burdened them with my "problems". even as i write this, i am mad at myself for not being able to get up or go outside. it's too scary. i lost my temporary job, and am too depressed to keep looking. i have calls in to some agencies, and have been told that they'll "be in touch", but am not hopeful. my heart hurts. i'm not sure how it's possible, but right now i feel numb and pained at the same time. like i know i shouldn't feel catatonic, but i can't help it. i want my mom. i want my dad. i want someone to make this pain go away, and it scares me to think that i'm the only one who can do that. i don't care enough. i can't. i'm sick of being a burden to everyone.
"I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better."
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