Hi, Kity, welcome to the forum!
My burning question is this - what doctor in this world would diagnose you BP and then give you only and antidepressant???????????
Where is your mood stabilizer????????
Did you in fact get formally diagnosed BP I or BP II by a psychiatrist?? If you truly are bipolar, then getting an antidepressant without a mood stabilizer will only make you more manic and as a result, make the symptoms you describe even worse. Any doc knows that. Well, any pdoc (psychiatrist). If you are being treated or were diagnosed by a GP, get a pdoc quick, as this one, if it is either, doesnt know how to treat it and it could be dangerous.
Here is a full description of what is required to be diagnosed BP accurately, and how many symptoms must be present at the same time, if as in your case, 7 symptoms must be present in the mania description. BP is based on mania, at least one hypomanic or manic episode lasting a week or more is the criteria for diagnosis.
Then, in my next post right after this one, there is a short screening test to help you understand better what mania is like and how it has affected you personally. Note: Neither test is to diagnose you, but if you meet the criteria or come close, take these with you to the PDOC for accurate treatment.
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Variety is the spice of life, BP is the key