Recent break up

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   Posted 2/10/2016 5:14 AM (GMT -7)   
I had been in a relationship for 2 and a half years, but I was not happy towards the end, and he could tell. I tried so hard to be happy and it killed me that it wasn't going to happen. I thought about us breaking up and it scared me because I still cared about him and also, I couldn't afford to move out.

We broke up last Sunday and I had to move to my dads which is about a half hour away from most of my friends. Our breakup was really amicable but I am missing him so much right now. The day I started packing he came in the room and I just started sobbing and apologizing for the way I felt. He just held me and said it was going to be ok and that he still cared about me.

I am missing him more than anything right now. I know it was the right thing but he was my best friend and all I want to do is talk to him about how scared I am. I was ok the first week. My dad is really cool and we get along but it's so hard to be away from my friends right now. last weekend I enjoyed time to myself on Friday and Saturday mostly because no one was available to hangout but when Sunday came I just felt so alone. I have anxiety and bipolar disorder so that isn't making anything better. I feel like IT will be so long before I go have my own place again. I'm 27 buried in student loan debt working a temp job. I want to talk to him so a bad right now because he is the only other person who knows what I'm going through but I don't want to bother him. I am crying occasionally at work, when I come home I take some Xanax and smoke some weed and I feel a little better. I don't wanna take Xanax all day because I know you can become really defendant on it.

I just don't want to feel this way anymore. I know they say things take time, but that's not helpful at all right now. I hate dating because it's so anxiety provoking. I'm one of those people who wants to skip to the part where I can really be myself and be comfortable. The thought of him flirting or sleeping with someone else freaks me out and I feel like if I flirted with someone else I would feel guilty.

Thanks for reading this I appreciate it.

Post Edited (Pennyln) : 2/10/2016 5:41:46 AM (GMT-7)

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   Posted 2/12/2016 3:42 AM (GMT -7)   
just have some time to redevelop. healing thoughts.



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   Posted 2/12/2016 11:52 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Pennyln,

I am sorry for how you are feeling. How are you doing today?
Break-ups sucks and hurts. However, sometimes it's for the best. I recently went through a break-up after being with my bf for almost 7 years. I was hurt and went through a mixture of emotions. I am still dealing with it, but I know it was for the best.

Only discussions of medical marijuana is allowed on the forum as long as discussions have a medical focus.

You are right. Hearing someone tell you it will take time is not helpful. I would suggest you try talking to your other friends. Hang out with them and keep yourself surrounded with friends and family. Continue with your studies and job. Give yourself a break from dating and work on you now. Focus on you and making yourself happy. Make a list of things you've always wanted to do, and do them now.

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   Posted 4/4/2016 10:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Totally relate to you,forget about studying or dating!

Take some time out and relax,Xanax is helpful medication.Hope you heal and take it slow.

Keep us posted.
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