Glad to know you're on meds. Do you feel the bi-polar medicine is helping you? Does it help level you out?
Does the depression drug help you with your depression?
Does the Xanax help with the anxiety?
60 miles from a psyche. Oh, me. Who refills your meds?
Children 15, 6 and 5. Do you get any help with that? How is it living with your father?
I now what it's like to have people against you. For the past 8 years, I've had a part of the neighborhood after me. According to how you count it, it was 4 households after me.
I'm now down to 1/2 household after me. The 1/2 guy is still there but has his house up for sale, so we're hoping it sells and the number will then be zero.
There is one other guy who attacked me for four years, who still lives in the neighborhood, but hasn't attacked in 7 months, but he still lives there so we're waiting to see about him.
One of the things, kinda like your situation (only 1 adult in the house), is that I live by myself, I'm a senior citizen, and I have emotional problems. Yeah, they like that.
Another thing, like you implied about yourself, this one neighbor, who I've had some problems with , started a rumor, and would hit on these new neighbors who had no history of the neighborhood and give them data that was incorrect.
This guy is pathological, which in this neighborhood is a plus. They look up to people like that. They sure don't attack him, that's for sure, or they'll be next.
But as soon as this one guy goes ahead and sells his house, I'll be in better shape.
So you and I might live in the same neighborhood.
How did your ex-boyfriend cause you to have a nervous breakdown?
You said, " I can't move no job, no money no one to help me. my family has turned there back on me I asked my mother to move in with her and she said no. I'm staying with my father but he lives in this town so I really am stuck."
It is tough, but you did reach out for help by contacting this website. That took some doing, and I'm glad you did.
Is there anything you can feel good about in your life?
Is there anyway to get out? Do you have a town library, or is that 60 miles away? Is there any group counseling? Can you do any volunteer work to get your mind off of some things?
You said, "No I don't feel like an ok person, Its hard for me to look into a mirror I feel like I don't belong. Like I'm a waste of space.. I just am so sick of everything."
It's not your fault that you feel this way. You were attacked as a child, but that was someone else who did that, that wasn't your fault. We don't want somebody else making us feel worthless, when it was their fault.
You are not worthless. They made you feel worthless, but you are not. You are a good mom.
Is there anyone around who you can visit? Is there a new neighbor
you can welcome to the neighborhood? Is there some older neighbors you can visit?
Is there a senior citizen in your neighborhood you can visit and find out if you can do anything to help them? Is there someone in your neighborhood who is down and out? You'd be a good person to talk to because you've had problems, also.
Keep your mind open to any solution. When I was having trouble with one of these last two neighbors, I still kept my mind open to fixing this. He was trying to destroy me with pathological anger, trying to convince me that he had already won.
But I knew he hadn't. I kept an open and positive mind to a solution, the hardest part of the problem. What did I do?
I thought, if I had his phone number, I'd call him and see if we could set up a time to talk about this issue. I thought, but I don't have his phone number. Still trying to stay positive, I thought, but wait, I know his next door neighbor, probably my only ally left on the street.
She was 80+ years old. I thought, since she's a senior citizen, she has his phone number in case she's in trouble, and this guy and his wife live next door. She has his phone number.
"Ms. Jones, year, how's it going?" Then I asked for his number. She said, "I'll call him and give him your phone number, and he can call you." OK. He calls me, and I ask him if we can talk. He agrees. He comes by here. We talk. No good came of it.
But the point is, I tried, and I got his phone number. He wouldn't give an inch, but I made an effort. So, my point is, I'm trying to resolve these problems.
Is there any chance you can make some efforts?
Don't let some SOB decide that you're worthless.