Posted 7/13/2016 4:06 AM (GMT -8)
I am so very sorry for your loss. I have always believed losing a child would be the most difficult loss you could have. I hope you are finding some comfort somewhere. I believe therapy or a support group would be extremely necessary for me in your situation.
Addiction is such a difficult thing, and you are not the one who purchased the drug or put it in his body. I really hope you are not blaming yourself. Your son made this choice. With mental illness it is very difficult when we can't find the right medications or treatment to make life tolerable.
My heart hurts for you! I am praying for you and hope you are able to find help and some relief. As mentioned above, grief is different for everyone. My Mom died over 30 years ago, and I still struggle with it, so don't put a timeline on when you "need to be better". Do what you need to take care of yourself.
Hugs and love to you!!