You said you have Bipolar II.
Mayo clinic says that's "one major depressive episode lasting at least two weeks and at least one hypomanic episode lasting at least four days, but you've never had a manic episode."
But you said, "But this last 3 weeks have been strangely unfamiliar. My highs have been super high, full of ecstatic energy, which lasted an hour or so when the lows would intervene ( low's which had been extremely low, leaving me super depressed)."
Mayo Clinic said, "Bipolar I disorder. You've had at least one manic episode. The manic episode may be preceded by or followed by hypomanic or major depressive episodes. Mania symptoms cause significant impairment in your life and may require hospitalization or trigger a break from reality (psychosis)."
So, do you think you've gone from Bipolar I to Bipolar 2?
I'm taking Lithium and Mirtazapine for depression. Are you taking any pills for that? Are they working? They may not be working if your depression, I'll guess Bipolar I, has now gone to depression and mania, I'll guess Bipolar 2.
So you might needs your meds adjusted.
Does your psychiatrist know that your condition has changed? I think you really need to let him or her know that, and get an appointment. You can always go to the ER if things get bad before your appointment.
You say, "I'm full of this morbid, suicidal energy." If it's an emergency situation, you can probably call 911, or a Suicide Hotline which is listed on the net.
For sleep, I go to the health food store, or the net, and take one of their sleep suppliments. You're supposed to check with your doctor or pharmacist, for there can be problems with that and a medicine.
Are you in contact with somebody who can help you?
Oh, good news, you just said, "I just needed your opinion on this whole thing, does it seem like my bipolar has switched from 2 to 1? Going to ask the same question to my doc, but thats not for another 7 or 8 hours. For now, I could use some outside perspective. Any suggestions, thoughts?"
That's very good news, that your doctor's appt. might be only 6 or 7 hours from now.
I would try to stay positive. One problem at a time, and be positive about that problem.
I'm fixing to go to sleep in about 15 minutes.
Please let us know what happens at your appt. in maybe 6 or 7 hours. I know bipolar can be frightening. But you've got a good situation in that you've got a doctor's appt. coming up in a pretty short time.