I think it's good that you reached out for help.
I don't have the experience of the anti-depressants you mentioned.
You said something about, I thought, how do I take these medicines, and it said on the net to take them the way your doctor said to take them.
You said, "she put me on trintellix 10 mg and buprpoin 150 mg.
just started yesterday."
I've never taken either of those, so I don't have any experience with that.
You said, "I am worried about whether I am taking too much and I added 30 mg cymbals so I titrate off"
I don't quite get that. You added 30 mg cymbals, which was your former medicine. Then you worry about taking too much.
I have bipolar, and I take Lithium (it lifts depression and lowers mania) and Mirtazapine (for depression).
You said, "I suffer depression and over the last year I have experienced betrayal from friends and a new romance. I tried to bounce back but couldn't I was in recovery from pain meds and over the year have begun to look in medicine cabinets etc."
I've been through some stuff, and what helped me was having a positive attitude about the next problem. Also, what has helped is, "The person you have to defeat is the person you have to look at in the mirror in the morning."
Also, one problem at a time, and be positive about that problem. Whatever your next problem is, be positive that you can solve it.
To try to look on the positive side until your psy. appointment, how is the medicine you're on now doing? What was wrong with the former medicines?
How long have you been depressed?
What sort of pain are you having that you need pain pills?
Do you think you're going to get through this? What you think is important to how it can turn out.
You can also go to the "Depression" forum on this website since you said you're depressed.
You said, "I suffer depression and over the last year I have experienced betrayal from friends and a new romance. I tried to bounce back but couldn't"
I experienced some betrayal during the last 8 years when a large part of my neighborhood turned against me when an enemy of mine started to spread false information. I've counted them, there are 5 pathological families in my neighborhood.
I just tried to stay positive, one problem at a time. There are still some problems but basically things have calmed down to a dull roar. That looks like up to me.
So times do get tough. We just have to try to get as tough or tougher.