Hi, sorry you are having a hard time with the depression and probably Bipolar causing it. Could be due to a lack of sun and less sunlight hours in the winter. Could be due to not being able to get out due to the snow, etc. Could be due to the holidays coming up, that can all affect me and many others with Bipolar. Get out in the sunshine somehow regardless of the snow and cold. It WILL make you feel better. Sometimes I have to practically force myself to go outside, but then I do feel better. Sure don't like to though when it is cold and snowy as it affects negatively my asthma.
I was on Klonopin which is Clonazepam for a long while, however, had to get off of it as was on it too long and it is addicting. You do not need it all the time. I am now on Lorazepam and only try to take it when I need it, it makes one sleepy, otherwise no big problems. It does calm down a person, but there are side effects to that as well.
You need to keep taking your Depakote, if you are on that though, do not stop that one as it is a mood stabilizer - I suggest taking Depakote ER a timed release Depakote. You can get it as samples from your psychiatrist if you ask him to get them from the Abbott Lab Co, it is free to those of us on low income so ASK - you can get many months like three months supply all sitting waiting for you. They give me a big bottle ea time I need it, then I go back when I run out. I even thanked the Abbott Lab Co once when I saw them there and told them how much I appreciated that and how effective it was.
Most all other meds caused me major and many serious side effects, especially anti depressants.
Try this - Go get some Magnesium which is good to calm a person down, and it is good for Bipolar, it is good for the heart and other things as well. It can help a person sleep. Believe me it works great, it is even helping my shaky leg syndrome that causes pain and discomfort.
Go get some Vitamin Supplements, Vitamins C and Vitamins B's work and those of us with Bipolar may be deficient in them. Try Fish Oils, you can also get a bottle of that at just about any store. You can try Salmons and Sardines, that is good. There are studies people have done and those with Bipolar may be lacking in Omega 3's, and certain Vitamins mentioned above. Grape Seed is supposed to help and so is Zinc. Well those are only options for you. That is better than taking prescription drugs and less costly.
Just found a site called TrueHope.com that offers a great deal of information on research on Bipolar and Nutritional Supplements, they offer a product there called EMPowerPlus. Lots of what I am taking are in that plus more.
Anyways, I hope your depression lifts. It WILL!! You will have good days and bad days. Your moods may change, that is all the way it is. You are NOT alone. That's what I keep telling a lot of people with depression, you are NOT alone!!! There are many millions with this issue.