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I am sorry for the loss of your son. Loss can be tough and grief takes time.
I added a subject to your post.
It is better to gradually reduce the dosage of some medications when you want to come off. It lessens the side effective by slowly weaning off. I would suggest you follow your doctor's advise and gradually decrease the dosage. Also, talk to her about
your sleeping issues. She may be able to recommend something else to help with this issue. You can also try things like meditation and mindfulness to help as well. I tried mindfulness. I also used Bach remedies for a short period. My psychologist recommended it and once particular remedy helped me.
I hope the weaning off will help you feel better.
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