Any port in a storm.
It does sound like you've had it rough.
I, also have bipolar 1, said to be the worse of the two types of that.
I take 700 mg of Lithium and 7.5 mg of Mirtazapine anti-depressant.
I think another artist, Vincent Van Gough, might have described his manic-depression about the same way as you did: "bipolar has ravaged, burned and scared every facet of my life."
One difference is that when Van Gough lived, mid to late 1800s, they didn't have any treatment for that. His life was very rough, also.
You say you are on medicine. Do they seem to be helping?
Do you think the ECT helped?
Did any of your relatives have emotional problems, like you mother or your father? Sometimes traits can skip a generation, and your grandparents could have had emotional problems, but not your parents.
Do you have any aunts or uncles who have such problems. Sometimes it helps to know where they came from and what they are.
Did you have any trouble in high school? I had quite a bit, which I think is where my bipolar first started to show itself.
I've lost a lot of jobs, also. Sometimes I think about that and it's kinda painful.
Do you have things you enjoy? Do you enjoy watching TV? I have certain types of shows that I like.
It's good that you have a friend. I have a pet dog that I take for a walk everyday.
You said, "Shelter, streets, horribly psychotic and disorientated, I came upon a hospital and entered hoping they would give me food."
You lived on the street? Have they made a movie of your life, yet?
I think it's commendable that you've made it this far with all that you've been through. Do you get to see your daughter?
How is assisted living? Do you get to go places? I have a hard time with transportation because of a health problem, so I can't just jump in a car and go somewhere, and that has caused me a lot of problems.
For instance, if I need to get out of here, go to the doctor's or somewhere, I can't just jump in the car and go. And that causes a lot of problems. Are you able to get out from time to time?
You are very artistic. Do you do any kind of art?
How often do you get to see your friend?