The title says it all. Starting towards the beginning of January/end of December, I was put on 1500 mg of Depakote, 25 mg of Anafranil, and 1 mg of Klonopin. As of maybe a month or two ago, I've only been on 250 mg of Depakote. I was hoping that such a low dosage would enable me to regain the majority of my ability to feel, but sadly it has not. It's given me a little more emotional flexibility, but I feel as if I'm apathetic almost every day. I remember once upon a time I used to have a strong sense of emotion. about nine months ago I was at a level of happiness (no it was not a manic episode) that I never thought possible. I call that feeling "home", and there's nothing more in the world that I want more than I want home. I wish to feel passion, ambition, sympathy, joy, excitement, humor, love... I have not been able to feel these things in so long. All I want is home.
Do you think that even such a low dosage of Depakote makes me feel this way?
P.S. I'm not "fully bi-polar". After a neuropsych evaluation it has been determined that my condition is unspecified, but it has elements of bipolar and anxiety disorder. I do not believe that what I am feeling is manic depression.